Everyone sounds like they are doing really well. Wish I could say the same for me!

Elouise is the devil. She kicks so much in a nappy change that I have to hold her feet and I feel I'm holding her feet too hard. She flips over at any moment, so its hard to keep her upright or on her back after a feed.

I gave her nappy free time on our bed, on a cloth nappy. I had a quick browse on the computer for about 10 seconds or so, and she was in the middle of the bed. Then I heard a thump and freaked out and rushed over. She fell off the bed. Quickly settled (much quicker than me) and not hurt. DP got a bottle and I fed her on the bed. Then I felt something slimy and she'd done a poo! And she happened to wriggle away from the nappy so got the blanket. Lovely .

I put her in the Safe T Sleep about 20 mins ago, and she can't roll over in it SUCCESS!!! Oh and she fell asleep.

Ok, so only a bit over 16 hours till we see the doc. I hope she gets some medication. Maybe not Losec, but at least a low dose Zantac might help her.

I sorta co-sleep sometimes in her naps, ie I hold her for the entire nap. Can't do that all the time, she'll get too used to it. And I roll over too much at night and can't guarantee she won't wake up.

And the smilies, well every time I tried to click the box so all would come up, it wouldn't work. Finally found some other link and have bookmarked it so I can find it again. Smilies are cool.

I have to make the appt with the new psychologist, my GP talked with her on the phone and said it may be a fortnight before I can see her. So I must remember to make an appt in the morning.

Oh how my life is hard. I feel so angry at El at times when she kicks and screams and rolls over too soon after a feed. I know she's not doing it to upset me but its still really hard to control my emotions.