hey guys,

I had bit of a cleaning frenzy today - and was sorting through my maternity clothes - made me feel a bit sad - I really miss my tummy. It's weird looking at ultrasound pics and photos of bellies and realising that the babies in the photos on peoples websites used to be their bumps!

Anyone else keep stubbing their toes on things? I have done it about 100 times - I can only put it down to the fact that I am used to stopping where my tummy is, but now that I don't have a tummy I don't stop in time!!

I had a major hysterical freak out on our second night home, thankfully my mum came by at just the right time - I just didn't feel like I could handle this and he is so little and I (and Simon) am responsible for him and it was just all too much. I realised yesterday I hadn't been taking my vitamins and I think I may have let myself go a little, really tired and stressed out. So am drinking heaps of water, taking my vitamins, accepting help from others and realising I am not in this alone - Simon is here too.

So hard to find a happy place sometimes when everything around you is different.

Anyway that was a very self indulgent post, I hope everyone else is coping ok - I have found this forum such a huge help.

Cheers, Em