Hi all

Well I went to see an ABA lady yesterday. I didn't realise until I got there and we started talking that not only is she a volunteer for the ABA, but she is a CHN and Midwife too! When she said that I felt such immense relief. Finally I have help!!!

He was so unsettled yesterday, for my trip to Emerald (an hour away), I just couldn't console him.... I was so glad I left Lachlan with his father at the shop. I just couldn't have done both.

Anyway at my nail appt he put a big performance for his feed that when I got to see the ABA lady - sure enuf he was fine. Well kinda.... He lached on fine and was sucking for a good few minutes and then pulled off and wouldn't go back on. Now this the best he has done in a while (always the way), but..... she could then see how he protested to go back on and applauded me for not forcing him and showed me some different positions too. Now when I sat him up, omg was he upset. She could see if was in a terrible amount of pain and said it has to be reflux.

I think because of how severe Lachlan was, I continually doubt myself that we are there again. Having her confirm that I am not going crazy took a huge amount of pressure off my shoulders. The support she gave me was amazing and right when I was needing it too. She told me I am doing a wonderful job and the way I am handling his feeding is comendable. I have developed the attitude lately that I will not force him to the boob, and she said that is def the way to be atm, as I don't want to scare him off it.

Now she said we should definitely ditch the zantac and go onto Losec.

So I rang my paed today (she is very aquainted with us because of Lachlan's history), and she faxed thru a script to Bundaberg so we can have the suspension sent to us in two parts. Impossible to get it here cold where we live. We use to live in Bundy/Gin gin area, so knew the chemist as he regularly filled our Losec scripts for Lachlan and when we moved here had him do the same (ie: send it in two parts, so that we could mix and then put in the fridge).

The ABA lady suggested that I go off dairy, but the paed said just to give the Losec two weeks and then we will decide if that is the next step or not. Otherwise we won't know what is working or not!

So feeling so much more at ease today, knowing full well I have support around me if I need it.

Just never thought we would be going down this road again, but hopefully it is shortlived. Lachlan wasn't off Reflux meds until 18mths, I am hoping Riley comes good alot sooner then that. Here's hoping.

He had a 1 and 2min feed yesterday that was it and he fought his last feed of the night, but wade nursed him to sleep and put him on and he had an ok feed. Just crazy cause he slept from 9pm till 5am. I just don't get it!!!

Sorry about the me posts lately, just been so overwhelmed with this feeding and it has been getting me down. Hopefully we are now on the right track and I can start chatting to you girls again real soon.

Thanks for your support. Sometimes I wonder what I would do without my internet buddies.