Not much going on here, just mad a quick satay stirfry for dinner, feeling really crappy. XH is just putting so much pressure on me - like today. The lounge room is immaculate (apart from the train set on the ground) kids room clean, ashing done... Dishes everywhere in Kitchen. Planning to do them later, once the kids in bed as ig et no interruptions. X gets here and starts on me!! Im too messy, if i dont keep the house cleaner, he will call DHS and take the kids off me!! Im trying to hard, i havent had a moments peace since i got them back - and while im not complaining that i have them i still need 5 mins to myself... I asked for him to stay her sat night with them, so i'll go do something and stay elsewhere. His response?? "I might already have plans, so i dont know." WTF? He's got poker on thurs and Fri night, a Doggies breakfast in Glen Waverly in Sat, and when do i get my time?? Apparetly never. AND he wants me to stay in melbourne until the end of 07. Well if this continues, i wont be able to, i have no family support over here, adn obviously no help/support from him... Im just so tired, i keep snapping at the kids all time time, and when they cry, i resent it. I just want some peac and quiet, and some me time... is that selfish?? im the one who broke the marriage up... i dont know. im all over the place, and i cant find my journal or a pen anywhere... (i put my jounal away because it was becoming depressing when i read back through it...) Im sorry im whinging so much, i just dont have anyone else to speak to...
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