damn.. i wrote a long post and accidently pressed the back button, and lost it.

bron - thanks for that, i shpuld ahve googled it. sounds very painful
at least you dont have to travel to syd for the treatment...

trina - lol.. no way there's another one on the way.. im just over-exhausted i think.
sorry that your mum's moved away... it's hard bringing up 4 kids, hope xh continues supporting the girls.

skye - WELCOME BACK DARL!!!

jo/sj - this is what we've been doing the last couple of days.. isn't this CC?
we used to pick him up each time he cried and he'd calm down and fall asleep then as soon as we put him down he'd cry again. sometimes we've had to hold him for a couple of hrs int he middle of the night, but he'd still cry as soon as we put him down.
so we thought we'd try this: it's CC isnt it?
when he cries we go pat him till he calms down. first let him cry for 3 mins, then go pat him...then 5, go pat him, then 10, 15 till a max of 20mins. he stops crying hwen we pat him, then as soon as we stop or walk out the room he cries again. it's very hard. the other night he just cried for the 20mins and finally fell asleep himself.
i sat in the lounge room and cried too. it was so hearbreaking cos he was really really crying, sobbing. i could see on the baby monitor that he's pulled himself up and holding onto the cot and looking at the door and crying. but it's not an emotional cry, he just wants us there w him.

and then he wakes up again a several times at night. it's so exhausting.

he normally falls asleep as im giving h im his last milk feed. so i thot maybe he gets upset cos he falls asleep in my arms and wakes up in his bed. so tonight, he fell asleep in his cot. so maybe things will change. but i guess also cos we've been travelling to malaysia and so much changes, might have caused everything to go crazy for him.
i really dont know what to do anymore
we go to tresillian residential care in january, i hope i can stay sane till then, im super exhausted and going crazyy.

anyway, on a funnier note, the MG girls and i went to a playcentre (shell, it's near you, at annangrove road, cotton kids) and we put poopy and this other baby girl close together and he went close to her, touched her face and kissed her cheek!!! hahahahahah