I'm not thinking about weaning. Well it's always in the back of my mind, but we aren't doing it any time soon. Its my PND. I had trouble feeding the girls & only lasted a few weeks with them & suffered bad PND & alot of guilt. I'm going through the PND, but the BFing is the only thing I feel is keeping me going. It's the only thing I really am needed for iykwim. What will happen when its gone?
I dunno. I was talking to dad about it a few hours ago & started crying. Every time I talk about it I feel edgy & teary. I don't know why, but its a big issue. I talked to my DoCS caes worker this morning & she asked if I wanted to see a councellor. I wasn't going to, but I will, just coz I think thats something I really need help with. Every day he gets older & every feed reminds me I'll have to stop one day. I dunno why its scaring me so much. I'm going to give my old GP a ring in the next few days. Talk to him about it too.
Anyway. Jesse's been sleeping longer through the days. It used to be an huour if I was lucky 3 times a day. This morning it was nearly 2 hours & he's just gone down again. I hope he's not cutting back to 2 sleeps a day! 3 is good!
& Yes Jesse reaches for everything...problem is that most of the time he gets it! I just pulled him out of the bathroom a little while ago. I think he was trying to hint at me that he's ready for a shower, but its too cold today. I wish he'd stop standing on everything! He's getting into way too much. Specially with this Wally showing him how!
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