Skye sweety you are doing amazing things you have just made a huge move to better you are your kids lives.DO you think it maybe more a combo of this thats magnifying the pnd but the breastfeeding is where the focus in. Atm its about the only thing that you have control over, is consistant and you are needed for totally iykwim? Sounds like counselling would be good thing and they help to draw out some of the other issues. Take care of you hun you need and deserve itxx

SOunds to me like all these babies ar eon growth spurts and teething etc. Just when you think you have agood routine out the window it gos and now becasue they are moving around its new type of exhaustion and demading in a whole new way. Got to love mother hoood huh,WIll is doing the same each night between 3.30 ad 4.30 he is wake luckily for the mo he just wants his dumy back an dmaybe to tuck his hand in but it does break that sleep up. I am like you shell I lay there thinkinng and almost waiting for him to make the slightest noise again.

We have childproofed the house lockso n doors and draws moved all the chemicals etc power point covers and all he is do dam quick and the poor cat...oooooooh the poor cat he now has a bald spot where WIll grabs the same place each time.

My folks came home on the weekend after 8 weeks away I could have cried for joy *L they were thrilled to see Will and bought him so many presents. Mum had will for the mornign whilst I had treatment which only took 4 hours yay. Counts have crashed in a major way and pathology actually rang me today to tell me thaey werent great *L* makes a change. Ayway am beyod exhausted and have doped myself up to sleep so will wish you all goodnight
Take care girls hapy mummys happy babys xxxx