Bron - It is possible. Another thing is that he is my last baby (I hope) & once I stop BFing him, thats it. Never again. Also I am very clingy with him, so I think BFing might be an excuse to keep him close too. Maybe thats just my loneliness & now that I have friends & family around who understand & have been/are going through the same things I will relax a bit.
We come from a kinda different family to most too. We are a line of V8 drivers & Harley & dirt bike riders, who listen to rock music & like to party hard. I feel pressured to raise a tough, feral boy when I just want my baby. & its all going to fast for me to let him go to be the type of boy they want. I don't want to wrap him cotton wool, & I do want him to do all that, but I just want it to slow down a little. I mean he's nearly walking. I know it seems a long way off, but is my BFing him & mummying him gonna stop early enough for him to be like that???
I dunno. I think I'm being silly. I just keep thinking that this is it. I'm 24. I need t stop having babies & start to get a bit of a life of my own. Which means I'm never going to experience this again. I'm not ready to give it up yet!!!!! But I need to live my life! As much for my kids as for me.
Ok, now you kinda see the reason for wanting to see the councellor. Coz it all just goes round & round in my head & I can't make any sense of it!
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