Thanks for all the advice girls. We bought a vapouriser which helped us all alot also some baby balsom which was great on WIlls chest and I had vicks on mine so when he was close he got that as well. He is so used ot having his nosed suck now he only crys for a very short time its liek he knows its going to help him breathe. He really is such a good boy despite a cold he slept from 10 pm till 5am which was great and today he was awake for the 5 hours mum and I were out and didnt fuss until hungry then just watched the people go by.

On a sad note I think my milk has dried up I have being trying to express my hand and by pump and he sucks so hard but obvioulsy doesnt get much out. I have been having trouble with the lymph nodes under my arms and my scars hurt from where I had some lumps removed. My boobs are also soft as..how do I know when its over as far as milk goes? I cant help but think its my fault becasue I had been topping him up but he was always offered booby and took what ever he could get and was always hungry afterward. SJ with your nursing background do you think that my lower platletes and low neutrophils could affect. I know when they are know my body uses all its energy to fight things off and I have been really flat and had this cold along with Will. My mum said her milk dried up at 4 weeks with both my brother and I but I dont think it has much to do with my body. I want will to be satisfied and hydrated and will do whatever..I guess physcologically I wasnt ready for it to end.

We had our second mothers group this week and I was amazed at how many people were bottle feeding I think the health nurse was too they all has different reasons and I felt less guilty for topping up but not sure about total bottle feeding. It was a fun group although I had flashbacks to my early childhhod trianing with all the home made toys and books and activites that we had to learn how to makes.ALso had a visit fomr the dental health clinic which was really interestingas I have covered dental care for 2- 5 year olds but not newborns. So now we have started to rub a light cloth on Wills gums to get him used to having something in his mouth.mind you hed suck on your big toe if you put it in there *L*

Hope the weather was nice at your place we had al ovley afternoon out and about with Grandma only to come back and find our garage half demolished ready for the folks to build their new house behind us. MUm and Dad are going away for 6 weeks in a fortnigh and I realy dont know what I am going to do I wil miss mums company so much our relationship has really changed since Will was born and we are so close.

Yay for moe I soaked in the bath for an hour tongiht and read mags that a girlfriend gave me...very indulgent.

OK I have blabbed on and done no personals at all sorry just needed to type I guess *L*
Hope you are all well.
Bron xx

PS prama I luuuuuuuuuuuurve muscles I say book for yoruself now and eat a huge bowl full!!