Sorry yes it is her 30th Birthday, forgot to mention that. There is alot of history with me and my family and I am sick of chasing them and they never come to see me so that is in the back of my mind. I knew my emotions were taking over though, hence why I asked for advice - THANKS GIRLS. See realistically in the back of my mind I am being spitful too cause I know for a fact Nik won't come and see my newborn, nor does she ever come to any special occasions (like Lachlan's birthday) and previously I have made every effort to be at all of her special occasions, but of recent years I have put a stop to it as I am sick of being used. See I just wish that the bubs hadn't been born yet either (spiteful I know), cause then it will look like I am yet again doing something for Nik. Sorry I told you there was history and lots of it, I could go on 4eva. To get from Warrick to Brisbane I will have to hire a car, then I don't know my way around, all these things by myself with Lachlan just scares me too. But I guess somehow, someway I will have to find a way to go, just wish Wade was with me!!!!