Lulu-Oh that's a relief to know Iz is still just babbling, Mason talked to me on the phone the other day and said hello! I feel so much better with Blake's sleeping, but waddaya know, he woke at 10 and 2:40 last night, Blah!!

Lis-Yep I'm thinking of having it at a park for Blakey's birthday too - I need to get my butt into gear as it's less than 4 weeks away now ahhh! I'm worried about rain but there are a few gazebos at the park I'm thinking of so it should be ok either way. Less cleaning up I figure, too.

Dan-Yep I appreciate anytime with Blake anyway at the moment as it's been so up and down with custody, I'll explain that in a sec. I'm so happy with the way Blake has become after we've implemented routine, I really do think they thrive on it. I was all for "do what baby says" but there has to be a time when putting your foot down is beneficial. Have a great day shopping!!!

Tan-Yay gumnut is growing beautifully, I'm so happy for you! Hopefully the pregnancy is treating you well! Did you ask to see if they coud have a sneak at the gender? Based on heartrate I'm guessing another pink princess at this stage (that being said Blake's was never under 140bpm so it's based on absolutely nothing really lol).

Well I guess it's time for me to do a proper update, there have been a few things I haven't told you yet.

Well, I had a chemical pregnancy a few weeks back. It really knocked me around, but I know it was for the best in the long run. Neither I nor Dave are ready for more kids (if ever), but a loss is still a loss either way. My bleeding and clotting was so full on I had to go on a massive dose of hormones, but it's all starting to settle down now.

Custody...well, Scott actually took Blake away from me for 11 days without letting me see him, and he legally can do that for 3 months straight before any intervention from police. He was saying he was going to take Blake 100% of the time and that he would fight me till the death if need be for me to not even have visitation. He is so irrational and all over the shop I have no idea how he thinks a judge would even agree that that's in the best interest for the child - he's gone nuts I swear it. All this and the chemical all happened at the same time, so I was a right mess for a couple of weeks. Now he has completely flipped and only wants him on a Saturday night...what the? Where is the reasoning?? I'm going to apply to the court and get preceedings underway, I've applied for Legal Aid, but it's up to me to lodge the appropriate paperwork and write up and affidavit; alot of work to do and it might get thrown out because we haven't had official mediation (which is in the works as I previously mentioned) and it's probably not classed as urgent. It's all such a big job and I don't want Blake to have to go through it, let alone the stress it puts on myself too. Has to be done though, Scott can't be amicable about it and I'm done having screaming matches with him on the phone. Oh, and here's a corker, he is accusing me of taking and distributing drugs, and thinks Dave is doing the same. HA, is he kidding me? With his irrational behaviour, I think it's the pot calling the kettle black...

Ok sorry for my rambling, I'm off to buy some new threads for my job, yay any excuse for shopping (and it's rainy, so perfect!!!).