blanche - wish I could give that to you in person darlin. You sound like you need it. Go and get that adorable little girl of yours, and wrap your arms around her, and breathe in that beautiful smell that is baby. remember all the good times that you had with your grandparents, celebrate their lifes - and pass on all those stories of times spent with them to your children. I know it won't make the sadness any less, but might ease the pain of losing them. My grandma died when Laura was 10mths old. I was so grateful that I had traveled to perth to see her when Laura was 4 months old. I love that I can now pass on "stories" to my kids about MY grandma - all the little things that she used to do and say - how making fudge makes me think of her, eating turkish delight and a multitude of other things. be kind to yourself darlin.