Hi my lovelies...

I just came home from visiting a friend her had her baby yesterday. I just ached when I was holding this little 18hour old little girl. Nathan had to have a cuddle too, god love him. I asked him why he loved cuddling babies, and he said "becuae it makes me feel happy inside." isn't that beautiful?

Fingers crossed Jols that the spotting was implantation bleeding! don't worry about feeling ignored. I rarely post anywhere but here... and my blog now. we love ya.

Christy - are you feeling any better? hope JJ is feeling better soon. Aston has had this cough thing going on. only in the night... i'm starting to think it might be asthma...

gigi - good luck at the feeding thing. I'm so sorry to hear things aren't going to well with DP. I have been wondering how you are as you haven't been around much - for what seems obvious reasons now. relationships are so hard aren't they - even harder once you throw a child into the mix, and add to that a blended (god I hate that term) family!!

taralee - looking forward to seeing you as a pregnant ho lol... was it a good party? very jealous about you going to see SATC... I really want to see it too, and think its a movie to see with girlfriends. organising doing that will be a mission, so i dont think i will be seeing it at the movies...

Kim - a whole week!!!! I'm extremely jealous of that. I am hoping that my girlfriend will come and stay for a weekend with my kids so that rich and I can have a weekend away. btw I'm sorry about your mum and sister too.

Blanche - how you doing hun? hope you have settled into your new abode.

Ann - DH finished that course yet? are you TTC?

Nelly - hidey ho girlfriend.

Lara - are you still feeling pregnant?

I have had my neice here this weekend. and have gone through a gamet of emotions - not with her, but about her stupid mother - my stupid sister! all I want to do is keep her, foster her, adopt her... anything but let her live with her mother. sigh.

we have had a lovely weekend though, just being... played scrabble, girls cooked, i help louise with her cooking assignment for highschool, the three kids went off on a big walk with a dog yesterday afternoon, with the walky talkys and had lots of fun.

DH went back to the specialist on friday, and will be having an operation, will know date next week, but it will be soon. He is anxious and stressed about it. hospitals trigger him, he spent 4months as a kid in one, and then watched his mother die in one, so all these emotions are coming up for him - and he is fairly unbearable to be around...why is it so hard for men to say "I'm feeling scared about all of this"?????