Thanks my beautiful friends for the support. i'm ok. just keep doing things that keep me here in the NOW. my neice is doing ok. swinging from being distressed to being ok. I know being out of the chaos is a relief for her. just being able to do "normal" things like paint her toenails with Laura, and watch mama mia, and do teenage type things. dh has been amazing. he hates speaking on the phone yet has spoken to child safety on two seperate occasions, made up her bed in laura's room so that she felt safer, just came and said to me, "going to go over to the shopping centre this morning, and take L and Aston and Nathan. Thought I would get L something, to say thank you for doing jobs around here. might make her feel a bit better". Making me cry just thinking about it.

we have an appointment with Child safety on Monday. one day at a time is all we can do. so we are going to have fun this weekend. and deal with Monday on Monday.

Kim - I had GD with Aston. so if you have any questions hun ask away.