Tanya: Yep I leave him on his side and prop him up a bit with some rolled up cloth nappies. He has rolled onto his face which upset him, but he usually rolls back. I'm glad to hear it's working. I'm very visual too so I understand my description didn't help much.

Woops I think I was rude to a girl at MG today, she said she went to sleep school and they taught her to leave her baby to cry itself to sleep and I said that went against my philosophy, but I wasn't meaning to be judgemental because actually Jude isn't bad about crying non-stop so I can't say what I would do if I had a baby who cried constantly. I'd probably do anything. I hope she accepted my apology and doesn't think I'm a total ***** now. I have a tendency to suffer a bit of foot-in-mouth disease when I meet new people.

Amanda: I'm glad I'm not the only one with a bub that goes to sleep so early. You're right, it does make the rest of the evening easier, but I wish Jude would dream feed and sleep a bit longer at night.

Still beating myself up about breast feeding and formula, and wondering what I should have done differently. Keep thinking I should tough it out and starve Jude back from bottle to breast, make him stop refusing my breast by offering him nothing else, but I hate to see him miserable and I don't think it helps anyone if he's upset all day long and hungry. I'm so confused and full of doubt, just don't know what to do. I want my baby to love my boobs again and I can't understand why he stopped.