I never really got over PND thru the pregnancy with Jasmine. It never got worse...but never got better either KWIM? Was always on my mind and i had hard days where i couldnt cope and i kept saying id make a bad mum and that Chelsea would hate me cos i wouldnt be just HER mum..but mum to Jas as well.

I now notice little things on both girls and blame myself for them not being perfect in every way.

All in all...im extremley hard on myself.