Im in on the msn chat if I can get it to work on my computer.

Im back in the land of the living girls...god I missed you all and found it really hard to get my head aorund how to tell you what was going on....I think it was harder with you guys cause we have all know each other pre our bubs and it was just so scarey.

On sunday 27th of jan I noticed that Mateuaz has a twitch in his face.....h wouldnt take the boobie which he loves and was really misserble. also noticed he was a funny colour (greyish almost) rang the hospital at 2.30am after he started breathing really funny and going blue. Ambulance came and of we went to emergency. He had a lumba puncture at 10am that morning and he was rushed to the Mercy hospital and I followed by car. He had an MRI which showed blood clots and sweling to his prain. Was told he would need surgery to remove them, then it changed to putting coils un through his leg to his brain. Was sent to the Royal Childrens were it was discovered that he also had 2 bad infectins, one being stafe and I cant remember the other one. Had another MRI and lumba last weekend and I asked the doctors not to tell me the results on my birthday as i didnt want to make the discission of medication that could kill him on it. So sunday last week was cr@p for me. then I found a 5c piece ont he ground and put it over his cot monday and good news after good news came in. The cloths had not grown and the virsus were vertually gone. Nothing grew ont he bloods that they took from him so with a little observation, my baby boy came home on wednesday with me.
Bad news is, he has recieved brain damage to his white secton of the brain which effects his muscles and eye control.....so he now has cerabel palsey. Alls good, Im very hapy my little man is home with me, he smiles and looks up at me when I talk to him. He is such a boobie monster and I got the nurses all to help me maintain my supply through this. The nurses at the Royal Childrens were fantastic and realy helped me to stay positive and focussed on everything. Im think by bfing him the whole time that it helped me stay sane and helped 'us' be strong for each other.

So girls I hope that you understand why I couldnt come and tell you about it...it has been an extremely hard and emotinal 10 days for me. Thank you for all your thoughts and prays.

Now enough of my *****........

how is everyone???? please Ihave missed so much please fill me in