last night dp and i had a fight because i said i was finding it hard and needed more support he basically said to me that it was my fault because he told me when we talked about having a baby he didnt think he was ready... you should have seen me go off at that point.. dp has a way of blurting things out when hes angry and making them sound ten times worse than what he means!!! he went on to say that hes useless and dosntg know anything about how to look after dd, what she needs to eat or what kind of nappy she should be in and i got really mad because he was in my opinion trying to get out of all responsibility with her.. i always help him when he needs to do something with her! i feel really trapped coz i have had max 4 hours away from asha since she was born and after all that i dont feel confident i could ask dp to watch her while i went out or something without him losing it over what he should feed her for dinner ughhhh... no matter how many times i show him something or tell him something it just dosnt stick.. i dont get it!! anyway...
had another nightmare night last night.. i think if i was getting more sleep id be handling things better.. dp dosnt get that either he says things to me like shes just a baby she dosnt understand you want to sleep in.. he misses the point completely!! he dosnt even wake up when she cries at night!!! i think hes depressed buti dont feel like i can help him atm because i am only just coping too neither of us are the kinda ppl inclined to go get some councelling or see a dr either which makes it hard...

mm - asha only has 3 bottles a day as well rarely she will have 4 depending on what shes eaten.. custard and then yoghurt as a meal i would say is probably too much sugar i generally give a meal and then a custard or yoghurt (tho we are off yoghurt and milk atm due to it upsetting her stomach).. i wouldnt worry about the bite at daycare, unless it happens again which might say that the carers arent paying enough attention to who bites and who to keep them away from as to who they are likely to bite if they have bitten them before iykwim? i used to work in childcare and its always very quick and hard to stop those things happening.. theres always a biter or two in every class!!!
arte - how funny the day you got the sleep book he slept better!!! i should order one i think!!! i would just have the dog inside and out for inspections (as someone else suggested) they give u a few days notice for inspections dont they?
rain - i am the same with being alone in the house at night.. dps gonna be home really late tonight because he is working late and then has soccer training i am not looking forward to it!!
leanne - sorry to hear the boys are sick again

gonna go to the shops today.. get out of the house for a while. pay day today and theres lots of things we need so... its about a 40min walk there and 40mins back so it should give me something nice to do plus ive been sitting round eating too much lately so i really need the excersise haha.. anyways best be off i have a stack of washing to get through before i go!!