Babies Born September 2007 #40

[andie82]

MM & Katie, thanks

Ive eaten two blocks of chocolate in 24hours, I'm ready to cry & go 4 a long walk. But I can't cause if he boys need something then no one wld be here,
I know the boys are going thro a rough time with this, I just didn't think they would play on it & be totally uncontrolable, & I don't let them get away with things just cos they have a rash & blisters (Alex not eating certain foods is one thing as he has the blisters in his mouth).
Jack is in his cot screaming his head off cos he just doesn't want to go down, he's had 350ml of formula already & panadol.
Alex is having his first nite in a single bed & I've have had trouble getting him to lay down.
You know when a kid screams for no good reason, I can't deal with that. If they cry for a reason I'm okay with that, I can deal with it.
Right now I feel so wound up all I want to do is break down & cry, but I can't do that cos then I'm not functionable, so then I become more high strung.
I;m worried I'm going to ruin the boys lives, but I'm selfish & won't give them up cos they are my life & when things are good, we are all settled. But right now, I'm thinking I shld give them up.

I'm sorry, I just don't know where else to turn atm

[MamaPan]

Oh Andie
Big hugs, it sounds like you are having areally tough time atm. I must admit I havent been really catching up on all the threads, I am so busy atm so forgive me if I am saying the wrong thing or missing something here. I just want to rush out and give you a hug and a break... if only I could. I think that you live with someone else? can they offer you some help, even an hour or so out and about by yourself? it sounds like you are a really good mum so dont go beating yourself up about it all, but perhaps you could do with someone to talk to? or perhaps the support groups here on BB even? I am sure you can get through all of this, but it does sound like you need to really talk it all out and help yourself with it all a bit. IT is udnerstandable, I dont know how you cope with 2 boys so young all in your own, my hat is off to you. We are all here if you want to chat.

Arte - i love the sound of will, he is soooooo gorgeous! noah is also making animal sounds now and we have his first 'proper' word that isnt 2 similar syllables or one sylable. guess what it is?? bonjour!!! i have no idea why, he has 1 toy that says it and now he does. now i just need him to wave when he does it LOL! he is chatting heaps now - i love it!!
i hear yu and clare on the eating - N eats SO much. it is madness.
he has started to stand up now (pull himself up) and is becoming a real explorer. so delicious!

well we are not in melb.. we are still going tomorrow... but poor N became sick on thu... wheezed all night and awful cough so i couldnt take him. he had a cold all week but then it seemed to develop more... anyway went to dr and he is ok and a lot better n ow so we are going tomorrow. i did get out of a weekend away with the ILs (ha ha - evil Pregpan!!) but also missed derby .. will still get to the wedding though!!

MD - when are you going away? sounds gorgeous! i am glad you are enjoying having DH back and having a good break.. i am in awe how well you have handled it all/ dh must be really happy to be home with his 3 loveky ladies too.

sorry all sieve brain (and i am not preg) has kicked in./.
talk soon
xxx

[Junglemum]

Aww Andie, you poor bugger, sounds like you are doing it a bit tough, infact it sounds like you are all doing it tough. It's not nice being sick. Everything seems so much harder when you have sick kids in the house and you are sleep deprived. You are doing an amazing job all on your own, and it will get easier again. The poor boys sound miserable, blisters in your mouth is not nice.
A loving mother doing the best she can is NOT going to ruin her boys lives, and it is not selfish to want to bring your kids up. You clearly love them dearly and are doing a great job, and after this rough patch things will all seem much clearer.
Do you have someone you can talk to on the phone? An understanding ear in time of crisis can be a wonderful thing.
Please don't apologise for letting it all out in here, that's why we are all here, to share the good times and the bad.

I'll be back later......

[andie82]

Thank you xox for letting me get it out here. You Ladies are AWESOME.

Yes I do live on the same prop as a friend of mine but she has a toddler that they boys aren't allowed near until their rash has at least cleared.
Sometimes I ring my nan but she is away looking after a friend of hers that has recently had an op.

Now that both boys have finally settled I'm going to go thro myself into some cleaning.

bbl

thx again

[Junglemum]

Bugger the cleaning Andie, put your feet up love and have a rest!

Trill- *wolf whistles* hot mumma with the hot new Av. I am LOVING you ticker too btw. I think i want one!

PP- bummer you missed derby. Glad N is getting better.

Arte- i was having a good chuckle at Wills antics! Lu has been surprising me lately. She barks like a puppy, mooo's like a cow. Says shoes, down, up, ta sssssss which means finished. She rubs her hands together and goes sssssss when she's had enough food, very cute!

Raino- ooo i am hanging out to check out the new doncaster. You better not be looking too hot at swimming, i'll have to get a new friend!

[Trillian]

Hey everyone!

Andie, I was only thinking about you the other day and how you hadn't been on for a while. I'm really sorry that things are getting on top of you and that you have no one to help you through this But it will pass, trust me OK? Nothing you could do at this stage would make any difference to how they are acting, so you're not a bad mummy, just one who's overtired and worn out and needs a bit of TLC of her own. How about tomorrow you take them to a park or something and just let them run around, get them out in the fresh air - it will do you good too. Take a bite to eat for morning tea and make a picnic out of it.

I can't remember a thing that was said in the last thread now LOL.

They are all such a delight now at this age aren't they? They are absorbing everything around them and the stuff that Alister does just astounds me, I don't know if it is 100% due to having so many older siblings to learn from or if it is just him kwim, but he's just wonderful (testing at times but mostly wonderful)

I suppose it wont be long and we'll be trying to decide what to get them all for Christmas.

Oh, I remember one thing from the last thread - MD, you're a lush! LMAO. Good for you on letting your hair down and enjoying yourself and having adult company. The trip away sounds fab too.

AFM, been busy as usual. Paige has this cough thing and its just wrecking her ATM, she's exhausted from being up and down all night with coughing fits. She skipped preschool on friday cause she was just too run down to go. I've been in a baking frenzy though and I love it! It's been so long since I've been able to bake anything cause even when we had the old stove it was never good for baking biscuits because the heat wasn't even enough, but the new one does them perfectly. I have a batch of m&m cookies in now. It is just sooo good to pack homemade biscuits in their lunchboxes instead of brought ones. Although I am out of eggs so I am googling egg free recipes LOL. I even lashed out and brought myself a set of cake tins to store them all in as the one I had was too small and they don't keep very well in plastic containers. They are really pretty ones too - it was a set of 3 from maxwell williams and they are different sizes. Only cost $35 too, so I was happy with that. I also splurged on some new cookie cutters and other utensils.

[Isadora]

Andie, big hugs for you. Please dont feel that way, you are a fabulous mother & a great role model for your boys. I really feel for you, being a single mum is hard work but in the long run as the boys get older things will get easier for you. Just hang in there. Do you have any family support nearby? I dont know what the situation is with your XP but can he take the boys for a few hours? Also I totally second what Trillian said about going to a park, I did that with Maddie today and she just ran around and ran around with the other children and had a ball. I had a minor meltdown this arvo hehe so it does do you good to get out.

Trillian - My MIL often says she thinks my DP is so smart (he really is a smartie my man) because he had older siblings constantly stimulating him from a young age, so I'm sure the same is applying with Alister. It makes sense doesnt it?

Falguni - Wow time is flying with your pregnancy, you'll have another babe in your arms before you know it.

Clare - lol thats too cute! (L saying her name)

Arte - Isnt it funny how they love playing under the blankets. I've made a few cubby houses around the house now, M loves them.

Hello to everyone else, Rainy put your feet up & relax after your hectic day!


Just about to go watch 'the painted vail', someone at work told me it was good so I got it out at blockbuster today.

[andie82]

Evening, was hoping to be in bed b4 now but hey.
I've just finished scrubing the fridge, the freezer door, the floor under the fridge & freezer doors, the cupboards, the bench & the dishes.
Now I'm having my Toffee Choc hot drink & thinking bout bed.

They are all such a delight now at this age aren't they? They are absorbing everything around them ...

I totally agree. Jack loves to copy Alex.
Jack & I were sitting at the dining table today, side by side, when Jack climbed onto the table, crawled across it, taped keys on the laptop, then crawled onto my lap for a cuddle.
I have witnessed him climb onto the dining table chair, onto the table, crawl across it & down onto the lounge.
Jack isn't walking as such as yet however, I have counted 7 steps (today actually) from him.
He shoves my nose into my face & says "nose".
He's starting to say "yes" to questions. I'll have him & he'll point to a the kitchen & I'll ask "do you want a drink" & he'll say "yes".

Thank you to everyone for your support. It is appreciated & it makes such a difference. Hopefully 2nite we will get some sleep.

thank you again.

The funny thing is, before I found out about the infection the boys had & having to keep them home, is I was feeling really great about life here as a single mum with my boys. Funny how things can turn. Being a depressive prob doesn't really help. I just want that confidence back.

well, i'm off to bed .. nite nite ... sleep well my sweets

[Trillian]

Well after all that cleaning Andie, you deserve two Choc Toffees LOL. At least no matter what tomorrow brings you have a clean kitchen - I know I always feel better when I have a clean kitchen. The rest of the house could look like a bomb hit it but so long as the kitchen is clean I'm happy. I suppose it's because the kitchen is often the heart of the house kwim?

H, It's been sooo long since I've hired a DVD. It's just too much effort when you live out of town and you have to make sure it gets back the next day and all the weekly hire ones are really old and have already been on TV anyway. I tell ya what, if that's the case about being smart, then my boy is going to be of Mensa quality genius LOL.

Awww Clare, how cute is that! Do you have it on video?

ETA, Hi Kate! yep, definately sleeping with the av maker I don't mind you getting the ticker - it is pretty cute isn't it? It was from tickerclub (you know the drill )

its straight to toys and girls clothing.

Ain't that the truth? LOL Although I am getting better at bypassing it to look for Mummy things. And V exciting about the house too. Great to hear that she went OK with her needles too. I would get the trampoline - Alister can get up on ours (we have a huge rectangle one and we have a set of steps the kids use) and he loves it. He doesn't jump, but he sits there and bounces on it.

[~Kate~]

Hi girls
Trying to catch up here so sorry if I miss anyone.

Ozstar - Yeh, the doctor thing was him prescribing me the normal pill now (even though I told him I'm still breastfeeding). I think I boohoo'd about it in the general thread. He's on holidays so I took the letter in and gave it to the practise manager. She listened as I told her and agreed that the doctor should have accepted my choice but she didn't seem 'surprised'. Like he must be notorious for his non-breastfeeding-past-12-months stance. Will be interesting to see if anything more comes of it.

Sherie - Rory and I got our wills done recently. Went to the public trustee and got it done. Was hard to have to think about all the possibilities and what-ifs in regards to Sarahs custody if anything happened to us. As for your av...*wolf whistle*...you must know someone who does great av work. I'd even go so far as to say that you might have even slept with them to get such a great av. Where'd you get that awesome ticker from...? I love the way it has the age A is now and the countdown to his next birthday. Mind if I get one too...?

Andie - from all of us to you. I hope that you get a bit of a break some how. Forget the cleaning and just look after yourself and your boys. You are doing a great job but if you don't look after yourself then you run the risk of being too rundown to be much good at all.

Claire - Hows your Oma? I hope she is feeling better.

Rainy - How'd your lunch go? It's funny how people that you would never really get to know end up being great mates once circumstances change.

Fal - OMG about the spiders. I'd be hiding if I saw too many . 1 or 2 is okay but argh...no thanks. How'd you go with the pest guy? Did he figure out what they are? And on L being fascinated with one. Sarah wanted to play with a harmless little huntsman and cracked a tanty when I grabbed her off the floor.

MD - Hows life being just a mummy and not mummy and daddy going? Did you have a great 'date' night? I PMSL at the short term alcoholic line. The trip away sounds like heaven...you definately deserve it.

MM - Congrats on the dress...such a great feeling to know that the 'major' decision is over with. I felt like anything else could not turn out and I'd be okay but the dress was special. Had to be perfect. I can't wait to see pics of it...any chance you could sneak a couple on here?

Art - William is just too cute...just want to eat him up. Such a clever little man to know so many words and understands heaps more. And OMG...so cute on the little tents and teepees out of blankets

PP - Congrats to N for speaking a second language...it does count you know. I'm trying to get Sarah to say 'Bula' (Fijian greeting) in time for our trip next year.

AFM. Well S had her needles on Friday and took them pretty well. Hasn't had any reaction (touch wood) and seems to have coped better than the other ones. I've only gave her some Dimetapp that afternoon once we got home and none since. Got her weighed and shes 9.2kg. Doctor seemed happy with her so
We also went shopping today as DH had a day off work for a change. Went into Kmart and found some of the cutest outdoor stuff for S. A slide, picnic table and a water/sand table. All for under $120. Bargain. Also grabbed a FP Press N Go Train for $10!!! Well grabbed two actually...one for Sarah and the other as a gift if needed. And got the spoilt little monkey a little blow up pool/ball pit thing with balls for $20. I'm happy with the spoils of my shopping trip. Of course, nothing for me. Hardly even look these days...its straight to toys and girls clothing.
Oh, and we might have a house. Find out for sure in a few days once the checks are done but it looks promising. Can't wait to get out of this nuthouse. MIL is driving me mental. Shes insisting on buying S a trampoline (4.5 feet with the sides) for christmas. I just don't think that Sarah will use it that much as can't jump. I'd rather she got a plastic cubby house thing instead. Thats just one of the many things shes said/done thats p!ssed me off. Latest comment was 'shes getting too big to be breastfed now, you won't be able to do Tupperware if you're still feeding' um, hello...I was doing it from when Sarah was 4 months old. I just worked it around her. Anyhoo, not going stress about MIL...not worth it.

Okay...long post over...night girls

[Cassius2]

Andie: throw yourself into a nice hot cocoa instead girl!!! cleaning shmeaning...mess can live another day!

i can HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend the services provided by PANDA. panda org au...i go to them from time to time....hang in there sweetie the good days do come.

[Cassius2]

Leila says 'leila' now when she cops a squizz of herself in photos. ahh the ego! LOL!