Kate: i hear ya big time. today was that day for us. told DH that i am not going to live a life with regret. and that includes looking back in 5 years time and wishing that we had of fixed things sooner. it wasnt a great moment, but i think we both kinda needed to hear it, so that we could come together to find some practical and emotional support strategies. DH tried the whole 'i (him) do so much' line on me and i let him go and say it. but i have been pointing out the things that i do as well during the day as the day progressed. for him, having me cook, dress, clean and entertain Leila doesnt seem to hit the radar of work. i put her to bed then come out and cook dinner and he had the hide to tell me that he is the one walking the dog! ummm, yeah except for the 3 days that you used to commute to wollongong then i would run the whole house and baby...uurrghh. it's so hard, as i know that it is hard to compare jobs and roles, but give me a break!
Arte: they are so cute imitating their world and also just seeing what gets their attention is such a fascinating insight into their minds i reckon. love it.
oh arte that camping trip sounds splendid and how beautiful to see a deer! wish i could go somewhere so beautiful!
MM: i so glad that you have found some peace with the am bottle. i truly believe that she will start sleeping longer bit by bit as she grows and eventually it will morph into a 6.30am breakfast...
it's so hard to not compare with other mums. i swear that every mother i see is the epitomy of maternal goodness and i am the ramshackled banshee from the swamp who accidently found a cute baby.
Rainy: it's soo true! mums groups are obsessed with sleep! and how 'good' their babies are...i didnt realise this fully until i moved here to melbourne and Leila was much older (5 months) and the other mums were full on about it. i guess with an older baby i had time to adjust to the lack of sleep!
AFM: well after the shocker start we did some retail therapy at the new bunnings....soooo awesome. got some sandpit sand and 2 kid outdoor chairs for leila to entertain her friends with. we also ditched the failing herb garden and have transferred to a potted system. aahhh i love gardens! how sad is that?!! LOL!
DH and i have decided to go get some more help with our 'issues' so off to see my psychologist on tuesday...see how that goes. i am surprised at how zen i currently feel about the collapse. maybe it needed to happen to start afresh...
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