Hi girls, sorry have been trying to get my BM supply up and feeding Tilly as often as she needs but it is'nt workign and she is now comping nearly every feed, I guess I have been a big stress head over the last few months and a bit of a rough birth with bleeding and the works..so i should have expected to have some issues..I do normally and have'nt had the same issues as this time!!!????

She lost 500grams, then i took her for a weigh and she had only gained 100 back MHN says she is not getting enough sleep or milk,( I had her on the boob all the time trying to get my supply up and running..thinking i was doing a good job cause she wanted it etc, not really thinking about her lack of sleep) I am so disaapointed and feeling a failure, why won't my boobs do their job??? but i can't afford to add any issues to her kidneys problems.. so comping it has to be.. i will have to get over myself!!!! she is sleeping so much better, actually is milk drunk for the first time since she was born and still looking for boob, but getting a bit lazy and not latching on as well..I am currently waiting for her to wake up..boobs are leaking, and I can't help but think what a waste????

She has had her kidney US pretty much the same as what they saw through me..biggest cyst is now nearly 5cm, then a few at 2 cms and then 1cm and smaller, they are all jumbled up on top of each other, so they had trouble measureing them all, Tilly was great she slept through most of it and only peeped when she had to get dressed and undressed, she is such a good baby rarely cries.

We see the pead next week, for full US results and to see what the next step will be, most likely a repeat US next month!!! I am still worried a lot, the MHN says it is hard to pick up if urine is goign back the wrong way and UTI in little babies, so I find myslef wondering allt he time if thigns are well!!! I guess her behaviour would change??? maybe more crying? less sleeping? not much urine? all a guessing game!!!

I have added a pic of Tilly 2 weeks old after her bath...oh my goodness she looks like her daddy the poor girl...but I still think she is gorgeous!!!

Hi mum2bxx, I think we may have talked in your previous group..this is my 5th baby and I rmember you meantioning that you DH had other kids.. Baby no 1 is often abig shock, nothing can prepare you for what is going to happen to your life..from lack of sleep to hormones to ouch issues, be that boobs, down there or whatever. My Dh has another 5 weeks off work, sort of enforced leave..it is a bit too long for my liking..he starts to drive me nuts especially when he complains about how tired he is??? or when he makes my job harder by messing up my system or routine..which is oftenpoor boy is trying...BUT!!!!!
Your feeding sounds like it is going good, you must have a good supply, great he is sleeping like that between feeds...don't worry about them falling asleep on you at this stage they are way to young to spoil..my 19 month old used to fall asleep at the breast until about 6 months on the MHN recommendation I would wait about 15 minutes then transfer her to bed..that is when they are in their deep sleep, neraly always worked, sometimes I would sit and give her a little bottom pat. Crying happens often here as well..for laods of different reasons, sometimes anger, frustration, overwhelmed, sad ad or TV show, so proud of my family (sometiems they just do something so cute..I just start crying!! makes me so glad I had them) look at my gorgoues girl and the miracle that takes place to get her here and CRY!!! So I am the queen of cyring, don't feel alone.
leesha make the most of your time together...

Sarah, will get to have alook at you pics after personals I am sure they will be gorgeous, I am very envious..we have some professiinal pics booked for early May, hopefuly Tilly has gained some weight back by then an looks more filled out.
Becka I love rreading birth stories..you did a great job.. iw ill do mine sometimes soon..more a pregnancy journey and a bit of birth story..a CSections ripps you off in some many ways but then again a lot of people would probablly like to read about it..because you never know when it might happen to you I guess!!!

Bhoysgirl..big DD has gone to stay at a friends house..I feel a huge failure..BUT???? what can you do!!!! I just hope I have less problems with the rest of tthese kidlets..I keep wondering what I did wrong...but have come to the conclusin that I don't think it was anything in particular, sometimes things just happen and things could be worse..she is'nt doing drugs, drinking etc!!! You just wish them the best life they could have and i feel she is'nt filling her potenial and is'nt as happy as she deserves to be..CRY!!! and

Kate, how are you doing?? I was wondering last night if you had experinced any of the problems you were worreid about...I hoped not and given the fact you have been on a bit I guessed not. Is Abby doing well? Oh and Tilly arrived at 9.23am if you want to add that detail, why I never iculded that I have no idea??

Anyway off to wake this baby my nightie is wet and i am not wasting another drop I worked to hard for this milk to let it go to waste in my PJ's.