hello everyone!

we're travelling ok - I had a bit of an upset this week, when DS got weighed and seems to have lost weight ... so onto formula it was, and starting solids too. still having the same amount of boobyjuice - just changing his routine to a 3hr one (from 4hr) to include a formula feed during the day, and then at dinnertime, we have him on our lap and let him nom a bit of whatever we're eating. he obviously doesn't swallow much, but we're doing baby led weaning, and there's time.

I was really terribly upset about the weight loss, and not being able to feed him exclusively for 6 months - it was this enormous goal I'd given myself, to show that despite everything that's happened, and being at work etc, I can still be a great mum and nourish my little boy, etc ... and then after the surgery my supply has been decreasing, and now he's lost weight and it just felt like one more thing has been stolen from me ...

I'm trying to tell myself that 6 months is just a number, and yes, it's what is best, but all the thousands of babies whose mummies haven't been able (or have chosen not) to breastfeed exclusively are all still able to be happy and healthy and thriving ... please don't take this as judgment of people who haven't - it's just that I wanted to and now I can't, not because of anything I have or haven't done ... just more negative results from this stupid birth injury.

Joshua has continued blithely along however, and while I'm not sure that he likes formula, he drinks it fine and he has happily played with different foods the last few nights, so DH can get him in for a weigh next week, and there will be a significant improvement.

All that being said, DS has actually grown longer (1.5cm) and his head circumference has increased (2mm) so it might just be that he's going to be a lean baby. which I gather DH was.

I would like to officially request the rest of my life OFF the emotional rollercoaster, please.

Other than all that, work is fine, DS is fine. No movement on the milestones (rolling, sitting, teeth, etc) but it's not a competition. he's happy and sleeps well, and other than the weight loss, is perfectly healthy.

I hope you're all well, too!!!

yules - from another thread, was the kissy-poo in melbourne?? my second kissing episode involved unbelievably hot twins at the ice skating rink ...