Jen, you poor thing, pushing for 3 hours and still getting such a bad tear....... I had a second degree tear and thought that was bad enough. Alyssa was an emergency vaccuum delivery in the end (which apparently wasn't very gentle) because we were both exhausted from a 40 hour labour and her heart rate dropped to 60. I didn't realise what was going on until everyone rushed into the room and someone called the NICU doctor into the room and the neopuff machine was turned on. Thankfully all was okay and she started breathing on her own once she was out and the cord was untangled. DH even got to cut the cord - the doctors nearly did it so they could resuscitate her but she started breathing just in time. Then there was me who had a PPH when I got out of bed and fainted on the bathroom floor. Strange sensation coming to on the floor looking around knowing there's something different and trying to remember you have a daughter

But we're all good now. Left hospital after 2 nights because I couldn't stand another night of no sleep in the ward (so much better not to sleep at home )

Alyssa is generally pretty good. She's a guts and never seemed to be off my boob early on but seems to have settled down to 3 hourly feeds for now and in some sort of a routin that lets me sleep nights. Unfortunately only sleeping for a couple of hours in between though and like you Jen I'm guilty of having her up to long. Little miss was up for 6 hours the other morning because she just wouldn't go down. Think she's making up for it today. all she's done is eat and sleep!!!

I'm going to go and have a nap now that she's asleep and DH has gone to cricket training. He goes back to work next week. bit of a daunting thought but I'm sure I'll manage