Hi Girls

Welcome goddessofdawn Leila was born on the 30th.

We just had a trip to Melbourne to visit my family which was really lovely. Leila travelled well and had a great time with her relatives. It's so hard being so far away from them!! We are all going ok although Leila has another cold She just got over a nasty cold / cough which she ended up needing antibiotics for. I don't know if I should take her to the doctors again or not.

I have just weaned Leila. I have very mixed feelings about it. BF was going well but it was taking its toll on me. I'm 5kg lighter than before I got preg and I was pretty slim pre preg, certainly didn't need to lose any weight so now I'm looking pretty skinny. As you know I've been struggling with mild PND and chronic insomnia and there's been nothing I could do about it because as you know you can't really take anything when BF. I finally went to my GP who recommended some medication which I didn't want to take but I've really been struggling and sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy so I thought I probably should. It was really hard to admit that I needed help. I feel quite ashamed. I feel guitly that I've had to wean Leila because I'm not coping and I'm worried about what will happen with baby #2 when we decide to have another one Hopefully I will start to feel better soon and I will be able to put things into perspective. Sorry for pouring my heart out!! It's just nice to have somewhere to openly talk about how I feel and whats going on.

Kass - all I can say is that Leila actually cries a hundred times less since I've been using controlled crying!! I can't explain why. She used to cry and be unsettled and want me all night now she might cry for a minute or a few minutes then settles and doesn't need me and is sooo much happier. It's quite strange - when I didn't want her to cry she would cry all night, now I let her have a little cry and she hardly cries at all!! I hope Lucy starts to sleep better for you soon.

Rach, Stevie, Liz and everyone else