I know how you feel Fi, excpet I get some nights where he sleeps thru others where he wakes every 20-30min *sigh* its hard thats for sure, I am sure no one will judge you for CIO sometimes you need to do what is right for you...I swore I'd never co-sleep but I do when we have real bad nights..otherwise no-one gets any sleep.. every child is different some kids just dont sleep...thru..Luke rarely sleeps thur the day which drives me batty he will only sleep if I am nursing him which is fine if I have nothing to do but I have to run around after a nearly 4 yr old as well

anyway good luck and dont be hard on yourself ... you need sleep Leila needs sleep...and gosh about the hives have they calmed down today ??