Hi Lovelies

Well we've had a few full on couple of weeks. I posted in the General Discussion when I was at my lowest and poured my heart out so feel free to have a read, I won't repeat it all here. I'm feeling a lot better for opening up to the BB girls though as I realised what I'm going through is quite normal and none of it is 'my fault'. It's a pretty sad read, I think PND was a knocking on my door that morning. We have a doctors appt this week so will chat to the gp about it and see if I should go on some meds. I have suffered from depression in the past and was on medication for a year so I'm not scared to go back on the meds as I know they have helped in the past. They just keep me level and lately there have been days where I really need that.

On a positive note, our breastfeeding is going well! Yerhar! I'm a bit worried that Izzy isn't getting enough milk but she's filling out and has gone a kilo over her birth weight (finally!) so she must be ok. She's still in 0000 clothes though (000 in Wondersuits) and I had to buy her some summery 0000 clothes as she had none! I never expected her to stay so little for this long! I'm not expressing that much any more, only if I want a top up of EBM on hand or if I'm engorged. I'm still giving her a top up of formula a day though, usually in the early evening when my supply is low. It's working for us so I'll continue with it for now.

Sanchez - have a read of my other post hon. Our little girls sound very similar I feel your pain. It can be very isolating and extremely tiring at times. But hey, Tonga - you lucky bugger!! I'm super jealous! Have always wanted to go there. I'm too scared to holiday with Izzy yet. Might try a weekend away closer to home first.

Gotta run, back for personals soon. Izzy is ready for a feed and I mean NOW! lol