Noni hun, at some point you have to say to yourself "I'm not going to do this anymore. Tomorrow I am going to just get up and DO IT" only you can make changes in your life for the better Once you take that first step everything after that is easy and the rest just falls into place. How about you set yourself one goal that you must acheive each day. It doesn't have to be a big one, even something like reading the kids a book or playing a game. Anything that will get you off that couch and out of your slump.