I know it's a lge amount of money but i think if it's going to stop the pain, dicomfort and help reduce some of ur body issues i personally would do it. I think it's a very admirable thing u are doing to keep up the b/f of DA - u r a wonderful, giving mother to maintain that despite all the difficulties u r having with ur body right now. So i don't think u should feel guilty about spending that money to help u feel better about urself. Best wishes Yael - hope things brighten up for u