Way TMI warning...I'm embarassed to even write this but I'm at the end of my rope here.
Since giving birth (almost 4 weeks ago) I have gotten hemorroids and have been constipated. when I do go to the bathroom (every 2-4 days) it is EXCRUCIATINGLY painful. I mean, almost as bad as some moments during labor! There is TONS of blood in the toilet, on my stool, and on the toilet paper when I wipe...I have even seen some stringy looking clots when wiping. The problem is that the stool is huge, even with all my attempts at easing things out. I try not to push, but the stool will just come a little ways out, and it is burning (think 'ring of fire' lol) and I have shooting pain in my rectum, and it will just stay there unless I push it, so I can't help but push so it will come out more quickly. Usually after the first stool, the rest are not as large or hard, but I am in so much pain that I can't feel them come out.

When I look in the mirror, I don't see any hemmy's on the outside...so they must all be internal. What can I do to fix this problem? It is so horrible because I try to put it off and feel this sick dread when I need to go, then I'm in awful pain down there when I sit, squat, try to do kegels, pass gas, etc for days afterwards.

I take a laxative and tried to wein off it to no avail, (I also stated ultraproct suppositories and cream today) as soon as I stop taking it, I won't go for days. I drink lots of water but find it hasn't been helping. It's been affecting me so badly, I'm super depressed and anxious and I believe this is why. Please help!!