Water broke, went into labor pains and had my 15 week old baby boy yesterday morning. Then bled out and nearly died in hospital. I'm at home today after my blood count came back ok and they managed to stop the bleeding for 12 hours.
Why do they need to look like babies?! He had 10 little fingers and 10 little toes on little arms and legs and little ribs and a little button nose...he was so warm then went so cold.
My little man's gone...
How do I face work Monday and not kill the first stupid effin customer that thinks I give a damn about their blinking books and not start screaming? How do I go out and smile and tell people 'Im good thanks" when they are how you are when you really want to say well Im actually suprised Im even here and my dead son is buried in the backyard thanks for asking...
Ohh sweety, I am so very sorry for your loss. If you arent up to going back to work come Monday, dont go. Give yourself time to grieve, you have been thru so much.
I am so surprised the hospital let you go home. Have they at least given you a councilor to talk to. I hope they have done something to help you thru this difficult time.
I only know too well how hard it is. Please take care of yourself huni, and know that we are here for you when you need it.
Lots of hugs, and may your RIP little Angel Dylan. Hugs
Last edited by Trillian; July 31st, 2009 at 05:10 PM.
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I am so sorry that your little boy left far, far too soon I hope that the return to work isn't hard on you and that you are surrounded by loads of love and support.
Sweetie... I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Fly free little Dylan - look after your mummy and give her the strength she needs to deal with losing you.
Please take it easy on yourself, hun - take time off work if you need to. I know I would be too heartbroken to face going to work so soon.
*big hugs* My thoughts are with you.
Oh Hunn im so so verry sorry about your loss of your DS , i definently dont think you should go to work on monday hun if your not ready give urself time to grieve xxx my thoughts and prayers r with you
Last edited by Nelle; July 31st, 2009 at 05:23 PM.
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I have no leave at work to take, not that I really care at the moment. Hospital didn't do anything I went there with cramping, bleeding and told them I think my waters broke and I got sent home with panadene fort and told to go home, went home, slept for an hour then woke up in a pool of blood and went to the toilet and there was bubs still attached to me... I screamed for DP, he came running and said whats wrong, I said Im not pregnant anymore, he asked how and I opened the door and said because Im holding our dead baby... he was devistated. I wasn't given any counselling support just a booklet on "early pregnancy, when things go wrong" pretty much gives you a definition of the different types of miscarriage then says you didn't do anything wrong and 95% of women have a healthy baby next time around. That's all, I'm young so I "shouldn't be worried I have plenty time"
That's awful, you have been through a major trauma they should be offering you grief counselling or somehting more than what they have.
Just remember you have everyone here at BB.
O hun, i am very sorry for your loss.
My heart broke when i read your post, please know you are not alone, we are all here for you.
Dylan is such a beautiful name.
Fly free little one.
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I'm so sorry that precious Dylan couldn't stay. Take some time off work if you need, perhaps you can go for a walk or visit a plant nursery and maybe think about if you want to plant a tree or buy a garden ornament to help you remember your son. xo
Oh huni ... im so with the other ladies here please dont go to work monday if you dont want to ... you and you partner need to grieve and yell and scream and cry if need be. Work yes it is money but your health is soooo more important .....
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