Thank you all,

I have used my sick leave because I had the flu and my son was sick with croup and carers leave gets taken out of your sick leave so I have none left. Im at home today Im not really having a good day. Physically I can sit at a desk and type, Im not allowed to lift anything heavy or over exert myself so they said i could go to work monday if i wanted to.

I rung the social worker at the hospital, Im seeing her tomorrow and will go from there she knows counsellors, support groups etc, well at least I hope she will as she is local to my area, ty again Mum2 for her number.

I got flowers sent to the hospital to the two nurses that fought so hard to save me and my bits, I know a girl who is an ambo who knows them, she is going to give them hugs from me today as well I told her to tell the hospital to tripple their pay because they need to keep a hold of them, she said she would tell the head of staff what i said about them and I said she could give them my phone number to verify if needed, I hope the hospital does something nice for them.

I just want my baby back... why can't he still be healthy and happy and growing away... my heart keeps breaking over and over, shouldn't I run out of pieces soon?