I saw the social worker today I told her what happened and she is going to organise for the head obstitrician (sp?) and manager of maternity to speak with me. The Ob. will go through my file and try and explain everything that happened to me and where things went wrong and why and talk to me about trying to concieve again and see if together with the dr that saw my baby if they can give me an indication of what could of caused it.

The head of maternity I'm going to talk to about my emergency care when I first got to hospital, my feelings of being dismissed like I didn't know what my own body was telling me and being sent home to miscarry in the bathroom. She is then going to talk to the drs that attended to me and then tell my story to all the ppl at the ward in hopes that this will not happen to anyone else again and after hearing my story they may or may not write to the minister with some recommended policy changes. I said to them I don't want compensation, I don't want to complain, and I don't want the ppl involved to get in trouble, but I don't want it to happen again and I don't want to be swept under the table and forgotten.

The social worker thinks I need to deal with and be debriefed on all the other things that have happened and to try and come to terms with my near death experience before I can grieve properly, so hopefully these meetings help me get some closure so I can start to heal because I don't feel like I'm really going forward in life I just keep thinking of all the horrible things that happened and I can't let them go...