Hi
I know how you feel as I had bleeding with all my Pregnancy's and the last one ended in a miscarriage. I was absolutly devistated. Dr's wanted me to stay in hosp longer but I had to come home to my kids as in hosp they didn't want anything to do with me. I ended up back in hosp the next day and had to have a D&C. I was a mess and DH was trying to keep it together but I just couldn't. How dare the DR say "Don't be too up set you have 3 already!!!" you are greiving for the one you loved and lost, You have lost a baby for goodness sake. I don't care if you have 10 at home you wanted this one aswell.

After everything I have been through I would say wait for your first AF before you TTC again just to make sure everything is OK (I had more probs so I couldn't TTC for over a year and thats why I say this).

Next time there is a day that everyone is home, try and have a family day - we put the kids in the car and went about 15 min up the road to a park with kids stuff there that they could have fun climbing all over and we got hot chips at the near by shop, we had a ball so there was a bit of a ball game. It was just us and we had soooooo much fun. I couldn't do much but sit and watch and thow the ball every now and then but just watching the kids and DH play and sitting out in the open and enjoying the time was good for my soul I felt alot better in myself.

It gets easyer as time goes by, the pain is still there but you learn to live with it, its 18 months since I lost my "Angel" and now I don't cry when I am thinking of my baby but thats not saying that I'm not sad and missing "angel".

Take it day by day
Take care
Chris