Hello Everyone,

(I really would like to tell my entire story just so I can finally let it go! Please forgive me for the length.)

My husband and I were trying to conceive for 17 long months. Due to very irregular periods 2 or 3 months apart somtimes and the obvious struggle to calculate my ovulation days.... I decided to finally seek fertility treatment. My gyn ran the all the tests that she was capable of running such as thyroid, hormone, and etc. She told me all the tests were NORMAL! (THANK GOD) This doctor's apppointment was on 5/4/09. Before leaving she asked me the date of my period which was 2/9/09 (a little bit longer than normal) so she asked me to take a pregnancy test. I agreed, but my hopes were not high bc I had just taken one of many preg tests on 5/1/09 and it was neg. Well as I am waiting to be discharged she ran out with a red face and said.....WELL your tests is showing that you have higher than normal levels of hCG in your body!! I immediately wanted to shout, scream, laugh, and etc. She told me to hold off on telling people. She wanted to make sure that it was not etopic, but I had to wait bc it was to early.


Well I had 2 more doc visits and an ultrasound which confirmed it was in the uterus! At this point, my husband and I are ELATED!! We didn't tell anyone we wanted to wait until we saw the heartbeat. Well on 6/1/09 I had my ultrasound and the Doc said, " You are 6 weeks annnnnnd ....I have bad news your fetus heartbeat is 47 beats/min!! You will more than likely miscarry. There is nothing you can do. I will have a follow up ultrasound on 6/9/09." At this point if felt like a train and crashed into my chest at 100mph, literally!! I could not make it out the door before the tears were falling. My husband tried to be strong but eventally shed tears as well. I tried to be as optimistic as possible throughout the entire week! But on 6/5/09, I started spotting. I was still telling myself that it could just be a light period.

6/6/09 I was cramping the entire day. At 8:00 ish I started passing HUGE/MASSIVE blood clots. At this point, I just wanted to hold my legs together tightly just to keep my baby in the pain was unbearable. (Now the most suprising part of the entire situation was the PAIN!! I've heard women say that they had miscarried but NO ONE EVER said that the pain would be so unbearable and that I would vomit the entire time.) It was a night from HELL! AND NOT ONLY WAS IT A NIGHT FROM HELL IT WAS MY HUSBAND'S BIRTHDAY!!I went to the emergency room and the doctor comfirmed that I was miscarrying. They put me in the obgyn room with a baby bed next to mine. OMG so when I wasn't crying and screaming from the pain...I was crying my eyes out bc I was losing my baby.

Thats my story as short as I can put it.....TODAY is the one week anniversary of my miscarriage. At this time last week I was going through the WORST day of my life. Please someone tell me that it gets better. Tell me that I will not have to wait another two years before I get pregnant again. How do I get over this? I have been in the house all week!!!! When I am not depressed and crying...I am getting aggravated at my husband for NOOOOOO reason at all! My emotions and hormones are all out of wack!! I passed the fetus and the gestational sac...I wil go back on 6/16/09 to make sure that my hCG returns to zero!!! I want to start now (since I have stopped bleeding FINALLY) to have another baby! My doc told me to wait one or two cycles!! So I am like...which one 1 or 2 bc to me that is a big difference. I will ask him about starting as soon as my first cycle has passed. PLEASE LEAVE YOUR THOUGHTS, OPINIONS, AND SUGGESTIONS TO HELP ME THROUGH THIS TRYING TIME! IF YOU HAVE A SUCCESS STORY POST M/C PLEASE SHARE IT!!!!THAT IS WHY I POSTED MY STORY. I REFUSE TO EVEN THINK THAT I WILL MISCARRY AGAIN SO PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME THAT IT IS POSSIBE BC I WILL NOTTT RECEIVE IT..."BLESSED BE THE FRUIT OF MY/YOUR BODY" DEUTERONOMY 28:4


FYI....My husband turned 28 on 6/6/09 and I will be turning 26 on 6/15/09!!

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH,
AlwaysBlessed