Alwaysblessed I'm sorry for your loss. You have come to the right place to make honest true supporting friends.
My husband and I have been together for 4 yrs and have not been using contraception for 3 1/2 of those years. We always said if "IT" happens naturally we would be the proudest people on the planet. But after 2yrs of trying and all test coming back normal, we were advised by my Gyn to try IUI of IVF. We decided that if we were to go to such deliberate measures we would get married first, so on the 25th Jan this year we had the most beutiful wedding. And funny as it was, I got my AF 3days bf the wedding....how lovely! Anyway come february I didnt get my AF, I tested and had a BFP and it was so fantastic! WHAT TIMING!!!!! Always thaught something was wrong beause for the next couple weeks I had period like cramps but I was told it was normal. In March....Friday 13th actually, I misscarried. I was in so much pain, being so devastated did not help my cramps at all. I passed everything naturally and was very unpleasant. 4 days later I passed a little bean like clot and I just stared at it for hours and cried. The next day my brother announced he and his wife were expecting and they were exactly as far along pregnant that I had been. When I heard I was completely crushed, Im glad it was over the phone because if anyone had seen my face or real reaction I would be condemed!
I also want to conceive again yesterday.......

I can tell you it does get easier, AF time for me is destructing again.
Hearing other peoples stories makes me feel better about myself so I thaught I'd return the favour for you.