I'm sorry for your loss. I found my second loss the hardest even though it was an early one. I guess it was because I couldn't believe that I had been unlucky enough to have it happen to me again.... these things happen to other people, not me. Because of my age (41) I just had to start ttcing straight away. My third loss was very recent but I am recovered from it already because I was better prepared for it this time around. Again, I jumped straight back in there again. I think it's a different story if time is on your side, you can allow yourself lots of time to recover before you even think of ttcing again.... you will know when the time is right.