Dear Beata70,
Thank you very much for your message. As time passes I'm feeling better, optomistic rather than the awful flatline that followed the loss. I've decided to return to study which will be a great distraction while I try again, all the while focusing on my weight, nutrition and fitness in a bid to make a really good third attempt. You're so right about the need to grieve and the roller coast ride of good and bad days. Just before I opened your message I had a wonderful moment of hope when I looked around at the morning and thought 'It's a beautiful world,' a thought so far from my thoughts just last week. This forum is so helpful, it gives me strength to think I'm not alone although I hate the thought of so many women going through this. In the outside world it seems such a taboo subject. I guess people shy away from sadness. Thanks again for your kind words, they are much appreciated x