....like it was never going to happen, like it was never meant to be....... like you were too damn scared to go through it all again?

I knew this would happen - i knew i would get a few months away from the last mc and just feel like i am just too scared to try...

DF wants to wait till we get into our house (we are renting and rent out his propery, selling his so we can buy our home), and i know "good things come to those who wait".... but i am just convinced that we are going to lose another - and i just seem to be falling apart waiting for that to happen......

I want to feel his beautiful little baby kicking inside of me.... oh to feel sick would be such a pleasure!

how do i get through the wait of waiting to try, when i feel so negative and sure that we will lose it?

how did you do it?