i'm just so scared of trying again - and it just makes it so much harder with him wanting to wait.

he is sleeping like a baby and here i am glued to the computer with tears. i get so angry at myself knowing how much harder and more heart wrenching things are for others.

dd is starting to call me mum.... i'm not mummy anymore :'(

i just want that little bubba, but it doesnt matter that i am ready, i have to wait for him.... they say things happen for a reason, to make you stronger. this only makes me weak

i just sound like a sooky little sob, sorry guys