Lozzy - honestly, you sound like you are just doing as best you can and are going normally. Isn't it weird that someone showing you some kindness can bring on a wave of sobbing? But it's nice to know that people care about you. In time, you'll get better at managing their concern.

About the clot? I have kept mine in the fridge until I was sure I didn't need them. More than once I asked my SIL who is a pathologist to examine it. I think DH thinks I was a bit weird, and a couple of times asked "what's in here?"....

You are a mother, and you are forever changed. Keep being honest to yourself and all aspects of your life will have their moments of overwhelming sadness.

Go gently.