Nicole - i am so sorry for the loss of beautiful little Nikolai, its devastating to hear that another angel has left us, I am sitting here wondering what to say, because no words will comfort you, you are only very early in your days of grieving, so be kind to yourself. you have come to the right place for support and there are many ladies around these threads that have been through something similar.You, your husband and little Nikolai are in my prayers and thoughts.

What a gift he gave you in waiving goodbye, what a blessing he was, i'm sorry he could not stay longer.