How can I move on from this?

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Hi. This is my first post! I found this forum after searching the internet for some kind of support system.
Now for my story! (Wow I didn't realise how hard this would be to write.) Life was great up until two days ago. I was nine weeks pregnant and so so happy and excited. This was the 3rd time I was pregnant. The first ended in early m/cs at about 5 weeks. But this time I had reached 9 weeks and felt that everything was going to be OK. Then i started spotting and yesterday morning I lost my beautiful baby ('wicket'). The last 2 m/cs I have been able to just move on. But this time I am not coping as well. I have dreamed of being a Mum since I was a little girl How can I move past this?

My beautiful 'wicket', 9 weeks - You will always be in my heart!
5 weeks and 6 weeks.