awww sweets I am so so sorry for your loss. Like you I have been through multiple m/c - currently experiencing my 4th and have had a mulitude of tests to be told that they can't find anything wrong "next time will be your time". I am currently at the point where i don't know where to turn and what to do. I am experiencing such a mixed bag of emotions like yourself. Big hugs to you and i hope that one day soon you get to realise your dream and become a wonderful proud mum to a precious bundle of joy. xx kirst