flygirl, don't suppress your feelings. You have lost two little babies and you have every right to grieve as you see fit.

It is difficult to keep it together sometimes, but the people around you just have to accept that you are grieving and it's not just a matter of 'moving on'. Some people think it is easy to move on, but as mothers carrying babies, we form relationships and bond with them even when they are very little fetuses.

I think you have been extremely brave and having a rest for a bit might be a good thing. Give it a bit of recovery time - I did that. It takes a long time to come back from a m/c both mentally and physically so give yourself time and NEVER feel guilty about how much time you take.