I'm so sorry for your pain. Sending you a cyber hug and keeping you in my prayers.
After my third miscarriage, I went into a state of emotional numbness, never really greiving properly, never crying. I threw myself into all sorts of activities to avoid thinking about it. But last Feb, when the due date came and went, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Everything annoyed me, everything got on my nerves. Then by the middle of March I found myself surrouned by newly pregnant women and for the first time in eight months actually broke down and cried. That was the beginning of healing for me. I decided to drop out of my activities and forums, focus on real life a little more and made the decisision to TTC again.
I was very dysfunctional and I don't recommend it.