Maverick, PLEASE DON'T beat yourself up because you "waited too long". That's just being cruel to yourself when you need to be very gentle with yourself. It seems that only the people who have been through obstetric loss seem to know the right things to say. You'll find lots of support here. Of maybe you know someone close by you can talk to. But whatever happens, I wish you all the best. I'll keep you in my prayers.