Irishluck80, I'm so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your family . Losing a baby is so devastating, a life changing experience, that you must allow yourself to grieve as long as it takes, and be kind and gentle with yourself. You'll need to let out all your emotions and believe me, that empty feeling doesn't go away, it gets easier to deal with with time. I lost my litle boy in October last year, and next week will be his due date. I thought I was coping well and have come a long way (which I have), but now with his due date approaching, I feel all the same emotions I did when I lost him. Your grieving will come in waves, up and down, but time is a great healer and that is a blessing in itself. You'll never forget your angel baby, your heart will always be full of love for this child.
I have a terrific support network with a couple of close girlfriends, that have helped me enormously when I lost Joshua. And of course, my DF has always been a tower of strength for me.
Initially with my DF, I used to get angry with him because I didn't think he cared as much as me when we lost Josh, and would always appear bright and bubbly around me. It was much later that I realised that he was dealing with his loss in his own way, and he was always happy around me as he didn't want me to see him upset and falling apart, because I had enough on my own plate. So in the end I wasn't angry with him for being uncaring, he is a very selfless man who just wanted to make it all better for me, even though his world was collapsing around him too.
Take care of yourself hun, and find comfort and support in each other and your close family and friends.
God Bless.
Beata xox