Thanks so much for all of the support - it really means the world. When you go through something like this, it is easy to feel alone, but finding a place like this makes me realize that I am far from alone. I really feel that losing my little one is the hardest thing I've had to go through in my life. I was just so ready to have this baby no matter what and then to lose him / her. Today was supposed to be the day we found out what we were having. It hits you in waves, I have come to see this. I'll feel ok one day or one minute and the next I'm completely falling apart. I just want to say thank you for all of the stories and kindness. I'm not sure if anyone else feels this way, but sometimes I catch myself being happy and feel guilty. An example is one time a song I loved came on in the car and I started belting it out, and then stopped myself and began sobbing. It's as if I feel I haven't shown proper mourning or something. I don't get it.