Hi All,
Thank you for your comments. I am still waiting for it to spontaneously abort and feel that until i am rid of it i can't grieve completely. The first few days i cried a lot and had heaps of cuddles with hubby - now his back at work and I'm trying to be strong but the first thing i want when he walks in the door is a cuddle (he doesn't mind)! I know that when i do bleed or have a D&C its going to all come rushing back - all the emotions will be their again.

I have given up hope that it will spontaneously abort as the size of embryo is now 2wks behind what it should be and its not gonna just grow a heart :-( So I feel like my body is failing me - their is no hope and my body should know that and discard of it like the Gyno says that most will do. The Gyno was against doing a D&C last week and scared me and hubby out of pushing for it, as things can go wrong and its better for the body to naturally abort it. We go back to the pregnancy assessment clinic tomorrow, for a scan and then to discuss things so hopefully something will be done as i just want it out so my body can recover!!