my heart goes out to you, i myself have had a D and C and I wont lie, it isnt fun emotionally, but it isnt painful so dont be scared of that. Also please dont give up, just last week i had a patient (im an RN) and she was 47 and pregnant with a healthy baby, although she miscarried 3 times prior she still got there with no assistance. These stories sadly are few and far between but it can happen.